That's the question that haunted me weeks before graduation and the day after graduation. I wasn't one of those kids who applied to colleges beforehand because honestly I had no idea if I wanted to even go, I took my ACT and SATs on time ... I just didn't know what I wanted out of life so after graduation I was stuck in the "what now?" phase. I took a year off school and throughout that year I had many ideas, one day I wanted to do hair so I went on a Paul Mitchell School tour, the next day I wanted to go to a college far away so I applied to the Art Instituted of San Fransisco (LOL), then finally I decided attending a college close to home (literally 10 minutes from my parents house)was the best idea, i'd just move to the dorms and have a full college experience... so that's what I did. Freshman year was full of that annoying question "so whats your major?" i HATED that question because I was one of the few people who was "Undeclared" lol. It always bothered me that somehow everyone already knew what they wanted to do with their lives and here I was 18 and still clueless on the life I wanted to take on... (I later realized that I'm not the only one who has that issue, many freshman start with an undeclared major, and thats totally okay!). My first year of college was pretty awesome! I got my first taste of freedom, no parents, no curfew, (coming from a very strict upbringing ... I was ecstatic) (I really didn't do shit with my newfound "freedom" but procrastinate and binge-watch the entire season of Desperate Housewives with my boyfriend of that time lol) i did miss my moms daily meals though. Luckily, I was blessed with awesome roommates it made living in the dorms so much better. My second and third year I was a Resident Assistant for the college dorms and that was an adventure. I loved being part of that team I learned and grew so much thanks to that job and I met some very awesome people! Towards the end of my third year of school I was going through a rough patch in life, literally EVERYTHING was falling apart. My life was suddenly a complete rollercoaster I was slowly loosing track of the direction I had once seen so clear. I was living alone and that didn't help my case at all, depressed and loneliness should never mix. Thankfully, the semester was coming to an end and I was blessed with a new job that interfered with my current life so I ended up leaving school and my RA job. I was scared that I would end up making the wrong choice but I followed my gut. Fortunately, the new job I took on offered amazing opportunities and suddenly I was back on my toes and literally traveling every weekend (one weekend I flew to Minnesota just to go to the Mall of America, next weekend I was in California walking the Santa Monica Pier, life was sweet haha...)! Things were finally getting sunny again and I was grateful. Part of me felt accomplished because I was honoring my dream as a little girl which was to travel the world (of course i'm not there yet... but i will be;) From the time you start pre-k till graduation day your life is pretty much structured. For those who automatically know their next steps after high school it becomes a lot easier to focus on the next years of life. But for those of us who are clueless it becomes sort of like walking around in a maze, you walk in one direction and then suddenly it turns into a dead end and you have to turn around and start a new route that will hopefully get you to the end of the maze. The point that i'm trying to make is that its okay for you to not know exactly the path that you want to take as long as you're on a path. After taking a year out of school I enrolled again this past fall and I'm committed to getting my degree no matter how many years it takes me. The way I see it is; a college degree does not guarantee you success, it sure does help, but it isn't everything (I know people who work and do the same job I do... and they have a degree). So for those of you are like me and its 4 years after your high school graduation and you still don't have a degree.. and you still aren't where you want to be .. it's OKAY. You'll get there as long as you're making a pathway for yourself to get there... (its not gonna come crawling to you either). Lately i've been thinking a lot about my future and I'm excited for the direction and the journey that I'm on right now, I'm currently loving the job role I hold and I have all the love and support from my friends and family, life is sweet as lemonade.. I just wanted to share with y'all that everyones measurement of success comes differently so don't feel discouraged, keep on trying and watch everything get better for you ;) and if you do feel discouraged use that as motivationto push yourself to where you want to be. You may be caught up in a situation right now but don't let that be your permanent place, learn from it and keep it moving! If you're one of those who already has it good... keep it up, I see you!